Another Halloween Comes

So today when i dressed up as a girl who killed herself,
white and black make up,
slit throat and slit wrists,
i was judged relentlessly for showing my true colors,
because everyone knows that i cut because of an incident that
happened last year during sixth period.
i thought it was ridicuolous for people to be
that judgemental and that immature.
i know many of you may think that
it is immature that i cut
but you only think that because you yourself dont cut
and dont understand
what you feel when you feel the
pressure of that razor or sharp object
go into your skin and feeling that jolt of pain that some
how relieves the mental and emotional pain
that you feel and seeing the blood lets you know that the pain is real.
but oh well you can say whatever you want
to because i dont care what people think
but my friends that do cut like me loved it so i was all happy
my boyfriend didnt say anything
i hope he wasnt embarrased
oh well
this life is full of shit that i dont want to deal with but that is ok
not really but what is going to change
nothing
bye